5 year plan unit 11

5 year plan thing

I do not wish to enter the game industry, I never did. The reason I joined the course was because it seemed interesting, this course does a lot of things I never even knew you could study in college, only university, so I thought I’d follow in my sisters footsteps and try this course, I hate 3d modelling and programming and animation, the only part I can relate to is the art and design section. However, even if I do like the art and design section I don’t want to do anything in the future to do with it. I’m not near creative enough to even be able to make a penny in the art world. I use art and design manly so I can get new ideas in my head for costume, I make costumes/ cosplays as a hobby, I’ve been told I should pursue it as a career,  but I don’t want to, I see it as just a hobby, something to pass time, something to fuel other hobbies such as cosplaying and going conventions, nothing more, what I’d really like to pursue as a career is something a lot more difficult to achieve, which is becoming an idol/ singer, it has been my dream for years to become a singer, I sing every day, yes I get scared when people hear me and yes I have stage fright, but if I was to start working towards this dream properly, I’d build my confidence. I may not be perfect, heck I don’t think I’m great, but I’ve had nothing but positive comments so far, so I thought that this is the path I want to take, I originally wanted to study music in school and college, however I quit in year 8 as the teacher was beyond harsh because I got one note wrong on a trumpet, so I broke down and quit, this was a major wrong turn, I realized when I reached year 11 when I made a mistake, so I decided to join choir, it didn’t help but it still let me sing, when it came to joining college, I wanted to join a performing arts/ music course, however I got put down on it by my own mother, saying I wouldn’t be good enough as I don’t have any qualifications for music or anything so I should join something else… that’s where I joined this course. The word idol can confuse some people, it is usually a generic term used in japan for a singer/ dancer which is looked up upon majorly! I want this. I love the Japanese culture, I study their language, I study their music, I sing to their music and I practice their dances, days go by where I say to myself. “I can do this, I can become an idol”. But as I am working towards this I will obviously need a job as a base. I’m not bothered with the job I have as I work on a music career, just something that pays and can help me work towards getting the right equipment to start music.

So far I’m working in a charity shop called acorns, twice a week, this job I believe has given me quite a lot of experience, I’m able to help customers and talk to them in a professional and in a friendly manner, I handle stock constantly, fragile and non-fragile, I clean the store, clean the clothes and merchandise, this job has given me experience with practically handling shop good, maintaining cleanliness, customer service and hopefully soon working on the tills with money. So I’d say with this experience I could probably enter any kind of retail job, nothing extreme though. HOWEVER back to the singing career, in order to obtain any kind of experience and luck with a singing career, I’d have to take singing classes, I know of a few, and I’d need to save money in order to go to them (previous statement about getting a norm job) these classes will help my find my type of music and style, build up my confidence and give me a better chance at succeeding. (Hell maybe I can even make my own stage outfits!)

I have thought about uni, and there was a time where I was going to go, however the thought of leaving everything behind and studying for 4 years, putting off my dream made me feel sick, yes it could help me, but I want to try and do things with natural talent, not with things I get told by some teacher, also as I am at a certain time in my life (personal), I’ll feel uncomfortable leaving at the moment, but once I feel at peace ( when college is over and whole uni thing blows over etc.) I’ll feel better to start things up with my dream.

In  the 5 years I could be entering different competitions such as Britain’s got talent or even x factor to try and get a career in singing or I can take the easier option and start a channel on YouTube, it will be easy to post covers and keep my face hidden, making sure my identity is a secret is a big thing for me at the moment just in case I get quite a bit of hate, no one will know who I am in real life so I won’t get abuse outside. Other things I could do to get my voice known and herd is enter karaoke or sing in pubs/ restaurants or even sing at conventions on stage, it is possible I would just have to work on my confidence, I go to conventions at least twice a year so I have quite a lot of experience with what kind of people id be singing for and the atmosphere, I may as well work with a place I am familiar with when I first start out because I then won’t be that uncomfortable.